10/06/2002 Entry: "happy?core"

I have my last final in 7.5 hours (at 7.30 am) wooh.

While studying, I realized something. Many happy hardcore anthems aren't really all that happy. (For those of you that don't know what happy hardcore is, it's a genre of techno/rave that's all fast and filled with anthems and shit. DJ Spree is one of my favorite happycore DJ's out of Minneapolis. I encourage you to check it out.) Anyway, two of my favorite anthems, upon close scrutiny, are actually fairly depressing. Such as this one:

I was sent to outerspace,
to find another happy place.
Now I'm left here all alone,
A million miles away from home.

Floating through the galaxy,
a million stars in front of me.
Now I'm left here all alone,
A million miles away from home.

It's freakin weird to hear lyrics like that beautifully sung against a happy music background. Another example = my favorite anthem, due to how it sounds. However the lyrics are damn depressing, or at least to me.

Loving you has made me strong
but now I'm ready to go on.
Now my mind's wide open baby.
I won't let this feeling go.

Now, I can see how maybe some of you can see these as encouraging women empowering lyrics or some crap like that. However, I hear them as some chick's lame excuse for dumping some some poor guy. "Yea, I don't love you anymore, I just used you. Now I'm going to dump you." That aside, it's still my favorite anthem because I love the sound of it. Hence the weirdness.

Uhm... Oh yea, I fixed my amp and shit, and don't have any brain damage that I can tell. Woo! So shit's working out. I can't wait until I'm done with my final tomorrow, then life will rule.

And a slightly different note, She didn't say goodbye to me before she left and I won't see her until mid july or some crap like that. That kind of sucks. *sigh* I miss what almost was and the way things almost were. However, I don't miss what actually was, or the way things actually were. For awhile I could pretend, though. I suppose that is what I miss most.