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Wednesday, November 27, 2002

So, tonight the cops and I played a little game. I came out ahead, Me = 2, Cops = 1. The one point the cops won screwed us out of the bonfire, however, so maybe I didn't come win after all. Bah. The story goes like this. Around 10 pm I started gathering burning materials. 16 pallets to be exact. I went up to the burn spot (a little dirt hole on gravel road at the edge of town) to drop them off and apparently a cop saw me go out there and followed me. However, my paranoid habits of strategic headlighting, avoiding using break lights, and finding annoying parking spaces paid off and he didn't see exactly where I went and figured I was still on the road far ahead of him. His spotlight missed me by less than 5 feet. Me = 1, Cops = 0.

Around 1 am I was pulled over going to find more burn stuff, but with nothing in the car at the time. I was pulled over because the cop though I was speeding, going 37 in a 25. I then informed the cop that the speedlimit was in fact 35, and had been for as long as I could remember (years). Me = 2, Cops = 0.

Around 2 am we went out to go have the burn. There were 9 of us. We ditched 2 of the cars in a parking lot near the spot and they all hopped in the back of the truck so I could drive them out to it. This was so there were less cars at the spot, and also because only a truck can drive up the hill to get out of the spot. It was at this point the cop showed up, and pulled me over just as I got out of the parking lot. Luckily, I saw him coming and turned away from the burn spot. We then explained to the cop that we were having a "freeze out" (eric's quick thinking) which was kind of like a polar bear swim. The cop, thankfully, bought it, called us freakin' idiots (it was 8 degrees out), and then made us get back in the cars and leave. It could have been worse, but still... no bonfire. The Fucker. Me = 2, Cops = 1. I was going to take pictures of the bonfire, but since the cop fucked that, I took pictures of him and us instead.

Then we went to Perkins where I abused the digicam even more.

I miss Qehndrah. A lot. I can't wait until Friday when I rescue her. Yay.

Posted by Seager @ 06:24 AM CST Link |

Monday, November 25, 2002

What the fuck is a Zephyr? I know I could look it up, but I want you to tell me instead. "Fly away on my Zephyr, I feel it more than ever, and in this perfect weather, we'll find a place together." RHCP will always rock, death to naysayers.

It's 7:46 am, I woke up at 4:30 pm. Yay for breaks. Tonight consisted of laying around Eric's apartment with the Doedon (I can't spell that), Willy P, Jonah, Eric, and Bud from around 11:30 to 7:30 using the INTR4W3B and discussing such wonderful things of the geneology of Doeden and Hitler, that stupid word ending in "gry" riddle, about 20,000 other riddles, Stonehenge, the pyramides, the 7 wonders of the world and the site where you can vote on the new 7 wonders of the world, and other crap such as that. Katy, we tried calling you twice but you weren't home. Molotovs didn't happen, but that's ok. I felt lazy.

Oh yea, we also played the overly complicated Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles board game and Bud pooped about 6 times.

I'm beginning to finally feel stress leaving me. This is nice. Some sorts of creativity are seeking back in as well, which is also nice because I'm expected to create a website for the cross country bike trip this week. Stupid responsibility.

Yes, Iowa cut Qehndrah's hair. Sorry I forgot to mention that. Ioway = teh l33t b4rb3r!!1

I've suddenly become too tired to write anymore. If the Katy was awake I might consider dragging her to CF (the highschool, for those of you that don't live here) with me this morning for some hijinks. But, she's not and I'm to removed to really enjoy going alone that much. So, instead it's bed for me.

In the immortal words of SUNNY Z. - China
"Something don't done now will never been done.Do it for our afterworld."

Oh those wacky chinesians!

Posted by Seager @ 08:23 AM CST Link |

Saturday, November 23, 2002

Thanksgiving break starts today. I really have mixed feelings on the week. On one hand, I've renamed thanksgiving break to Molotovgiving break, since last break I threw molotovs most nights, and plan to do it this time as well. Add that to 3 or 4 planned bonfires and you have a great time. I'm really looking forward to a week of relaxation and explosions. On the other hand, this means I have to be away from Qehndrah for a week, and worse, she has to go to her "home". Mmm.... Bad.

So, I'm going to post a bunch of pictures so I can come here and gaze at her over break, and you can all be jealous of me. We recently dyed her hair blue and pink too, so she's even hotter AND cuter... Woo!












Thank You, Please Drive Through.

Posted by Seager @ 04:17 PM CST Link |

Tuesday, November 19, 2002

In no particular order, this is my life:
(How's that for faux poetic? Check it out, I used the word "faux", now you KNOW you want to fuck me!)

I recently obtained all 196 episodes and 7 seasons of Beavis and Butthead. I watched them for 4 hours yesterday, and still have many left.

I finally cleaned my nasty-ass keyboard after four years of abuse. I think it was giving me eye infections.

I attempted to watch the meteor shower but got fucked by the mooooon. Last year when this meteor shower peaked it was just after a rave in Waterloo that was... decent... but overshadowed by our quest to figure out just what the fuck Free Mason's were since the rave was in a Masonic Temple. Later that night, we (Chad, Eric, and I) went out to an isolated bridge to watch the meteor shower but got fucked by clouds. To make up for it we got a bunch of bottles and gasoline and played with Molotov Cocktails. (pics: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 ) Later I poured the remaining gasoline off the bridge onto the fire in such a way that it either traveled up the gas to the can or hovered in a superheated ball in mid air. Then, while leaving, I hit my head while running through this gate/fence/door thing (it was smokey), did a backflip, almost got knocked out, and ended up looking like this. It sucked, but at least the camera was ok.

I got 3.5 hours of sleep last night. Work was only possible due to caffeine pills. On a good note, however, today at work I did actual research stuff as opposed to being a lab monkey. Well... ok, I didn't really do "research" be any common sense of the word, I guess I would be better to say I did standard piss-easy microbiology, but still! It's something that actually took some of my education as opposed to everything else I do there that could be done just as well (albeit probably a lot slower) by a well trained monkey.

Shutup Fartknocker! I'll cave your nuts in!

Oh, the irony.

Posted by Seager @ 02:30 PM CST Link |

Sunday, November 17, 2002

So, I have yet to hear back from the Bree about Anarchy, so I'm pretty much going to give up on it. It was fun while it lasted, dedicating two past posts to it, but without a reply there is no point. The only people responding already agree with me, and there is no point in preaching to the choir. So, with this in mind, I will say my final piece unless further prompted.

I would like to make the argument that my theory that you, Bree, are not really an anarchist is most likely correct. I still assert that you are too intelligent to subscribe to a theory that is so wholey flawed, despite the strong influences of others that, one would think, would also be too intelligent to be anarchist as well. Further supporting this is your own diary in which you describe how you and your anarchist buddies have such a thing as "Security Culture." That sure as fuck sounds like a rule to me. And the Meat Kid, he was chastised for breaking that rule. I assert that you are NOT an anarchist, and neither are your friends.

You are something else. I don't know what, exactly, but you aren't an anarchist. You may have anarchist ideals, you may think it'd be nice on a small level, but that fact is even in your own little anarchist group you are following unspoken rules. You aren't an anarchist. Wether your group refers to themselves as anarchist because they think it's cool, are misinformed, or simply because it's easiest to describe yourselves that way isn't important. What is, is that based on what little information I've gotten from you, you are claiming to be something you aren't. I wouldn't think you would be comfortable with that.

And that's the end of that. On a different note, it appears Bowling for Columbine is still in Des Moines, so some of you can still see it. If you are in that area, go here for times and to see if it's still showing at the Varsity. If you need directions, call or aim me (Dreqan). It's fucking hard to find and Mapquest WILL get you lost. You best bet is to find directions to DRAKE university, as it is right next to it, on the corner of 25th and University. Basic directions are to take the 31st street exit off w-235. Turn right, go a few blocks to University. Turn right, go 6 blocks (from 31st street to 25th) and it will be on your left after you pass Drake. DO NOT take the university exit, it will fuck you up.

I saw it again tonight with more people this time. It seriously is a MUST see, all I went with agreed. It will further open your eyes and those of anyone that you drag along with you.

On a side note, plans for the cross country bike, juggling, and charity fund raising trip are shaping up, and I will be turning in my Peace Corps application soonish so I can leave when I graduate in a year. Holy crap, this growing up thing sure is kinda scary. Applying became a lot harder all of the sudden this fall due to the entrance of a certain person and true happiness into my life. (that sounds corny) I hope I'm doing the right thing... What always got me through the hardest classes and most demoralizing tests has always been the goal I have to make this shithole world a better place through my education. It's almost becoming an obsession, my need to use the skills I've picked up in disease research and health to solve problems that shouldn't be problems. Basic health education to those that need it, combating diseases like tuberculosis that shouldn't even exist anymore, and researching cures/prevention/affordable treatments for diseases that ravage underdeveloped nations. Sure, that's only a small part of what's wrong with the world, but fuck it, that's what I'm good at. I'll work on these problems, and it's someone else's job to solve overpopulation, wars, oppression etc. The peace corps will let me do this. The connections the peace corps supplies after serving will help me get a job at the CDC or the WHO where I can continue to do that kind of work. So, I guess, when it's put like that, maybe I don't really have a choice after all.

I reiterate, growing up is fucking scary.

Posted by Seager @ 03:18 AM CST Link |

Wednesday, November 13, 2002

I'm friggin' hungry. Incredibly so. It's a good thing my parents sent me food while I was sick! Yay!

So... The Qehndrah was attacked by a herd of death yesterday. Nasty things, emergency room visits, crazy infections, and dysentary. Oh baby... Dysentary is a pretty sweet word, I like it. I think it's my favorite symptom of any disease. If you don't know what it means, look it up. Be sure to go to a website that has pictures.

So, she is doing better now. This makes me happy. I was worried. Hopefully she will stay better and all will be good. Yay.

I finally, after weeks, finished working on the Giricycle. I'll take pictures once I have the decorations finished. Currently it's powered by the ghosts of Beavis and Butthead. You really can't beat that. Fear my potty humor, BITCHES!

Posted by Seager @ 11:26 PM CST Link |

Sunday, November 10, 2002

Michael Moore may be one of the most influencial people in my life. I first met him when I participated in a traveling mosh pit that harrassed the political primary candidates in '99. (My freshman year) Meeting him and my fellow moshers opened my mind up to a world of politics and bullshit that I had never been exposed to before. Those two days were a tremendous eye opener. And that's all it takes, one person to expose people to views that they have never been exposed to before. Knowledge is contagious. Never stop bitching.

I saw Moore's latest movie Bowling for Columbine last night in a tiny theater in Des Moines. It was wonderful, and gave me much to think about. Unfortunately it's no longer in Iowa. If any of you have ANY chance to see it, drop whatever you are doing and go. It's something that everyone in America needs to see. If you have a chance to educate yourselves, never pass it up.

And now, I must go continue studying Chemistry for my test tomorrow. Bah.

And Bree, I eagerly await your response. I really do want to understand why you became an Anarchist.

Posted by Seager @ 11:07 PM CST Link |

Wednesday, November 6, 2002

So, I've kicked the mono super pain neck thing, I think. It turns out I probably has a tonsilar abscess that got huge Sunday night (hence the intense crazy pain) and then burst. When it burst that night it slowly deflated and by Monday night all pain (for the most part) was gone. This was at the cost of having a really nasty taste of puss in my mouth all day Monday. But, it's gone, and as long as it doesn't fill back up again, I'm happy. My immune system can handle the remaining soreness and enlarged lymphs on it's own now, I hope.

On a related note, I've kicked the abscess, but now my eye is leaking. Yes, I have an eye infection now. It's all red, sticky, blurry, itchy, beginning to hurt, and leaking puss. So, back to the doctor for me tomorrow, yay. Bastards.

Mark, I want to add to your point you left in comments of my last entry regaurding anarchy. I guess I'm not done yelling at it. It made me think, that maybe people are choosing anarchy because they have rejected every other system. They aren't so much arguing for it due to it's merits, because that is impossible due to reasons I posted in the last entry, but instead arguing for it by a process of negation. That, every other possible thing failed, so this must be true. Possibly, people are using a variant of this logic:
(If not, I would truly would like to know how some of you defend it. I am genuinely curious.)

All systems are flawed
Therefor you must have no system.
Anarchy is no system.
Therefor, Anarchy is correct.

There problem is that there HAS to be a system. All humans with the exception of those with no conscience or guilt have an internal set of rules. Humans, by nature, try to live by those rules, and therefor those rules affect others. Often those rules are forced on others. Humans, by nature, are also societal and have a family center. It's in our genetics to form a society. (look at apes) And even if it wasn't, living organisms of the same species CANNOT exist near each other without some form of society or rules. Animals that live together have packs and societal rules, dominant males, etc. (wolves, apes etc) Lone animals that do not have packs and rules have LARGE territories so they effectively DON'T live by each other, negating the need for society.

Point being, wether or not all societies are flawed, Anarchy is flawed more than ANY SYSTEM there is. If not for the reasons I mentioned in the previous entry than because of the fact that it ISN'T a system.

Order (system) will come from chaos when intellegence is concerned. It is the way is always has been. If it were the other way around, society would never have evolved in the first place.

Posted by Seager @ 12:10 AM CST Link |

Sunday, November 3, 2002

Anarchy (finally)

This rant (which looks longer than it is) is for Bree, whom I miss a lot, wish did less drugs, and surprised me greatly when I heard she had become an Anarchist.

There are many ways to refute anarchy depending on the definition that you use. I'll try to be as clear and organized as possible, but if I get off on a tangent please bare with me. First off I should define what I am seeing as Anarchy, lest I misrepresent your philosophy and waste our time. There are different types, as I see it, and I'm not sure which ones you fully believe. From what I see there is personal and societal anarchy. Personal being a belief system where you follow no rules, do whatever you want to do, either for good or bad. Societal anarchy is a "society" made up of people not governed by rules, and who may or may not have personal rules and morals.

True personal Anarchy is fairly moot, because it is rare. It is also not necessarily bad. Mainly, because it varies as much among people as personalities do. A nice person who has a personal anarchist philosophy will generally do nice things, and a mean person do mean things. However, I would be very wary of trusting a personal anarchist because for them to want to follow a set of rules in which there are NO rules there has to be some aspect of their personality which desires to not be held accountable, to not have to be consistent, and to be, in affect, blameless in whatever they do because "Hey, it's not against MY rules." I should mention that a personal anarchist CANNOT have a set of morals either. Personal morality, by definition, is a set of rules by which one attempts to act goodly. If you have no rules, you have no morals. You would also have no guilt. For reasons such as this I also think that TRUE personal anarchy is very rare. Most everyone has personal rules of some sort. Therefor personal anarchy, while needing to be defined and separated from societal, is mostly inconsequential.

Societal anarchy has more concrete problems. I'll start by describing the death of scientific progress, art, higher education, and health care. For most people doing the work for higher learning demands some sort of incentive. Look around at your college "peers." How many of them are in school for the purpose of getting a high paying job instead of in school to "save the world" or for the pure sake of learning. The majority are here for their own personal gain. In an anarchist society there is no incentive. Coorperations have rules, so they wouldn't exist. Jobs have rules, so they wouldn't exist. People would do what they needed to do to survive, and that is all. You don't need to learn about particle physics to survive. You don't need space travel. You don't need art. Poof! Those things are obsolete. Even if someone wanted to learn those things, who would teach them? Why become a teacher in the first place? Money? Goods? Barter? That doesn't sound like anarchy to me, that sounds like society. A barter system can't exist in anarchy. Why would I pay for something when I could just kill it and take it? Health care, being a function of higher education, would also not exist. I would have died at birth (I was six weeks premature). If my Mom had survived that she would be dead now from her illnesses. My sister would have died when she was around 16 from endometriosis. But hey, maybe this is good? Lets get back to some good 'ol evolution, right? It'd be good for the species, right? Fine, if you want plagues to come back, HIV to ravage the earth, and pretty much resort to being primitive again, go for it.

My second point, which I already touched on, is that Anarchy is inherently unstable and could not exist. Even if we could bring about an anarchist society now, it would be incredibly unstable and be gone within a manner of years. The most likely outcome would be the reformation of fuedal systems and dictatorships, if any of us survived the resulting wars and famine.

For example, lets say we have anarchy and I want some cow milk. Well, damn, I don't have any cows. George over there has cows. So, I trade him some monkeys or something for some milk. Life is good. Now, Stan, he wants milk too, but doesn't want to trade for it. So, he kills George, takes his milk, and says if anyone doesn't like it, he'll kill them too. Stan, unfortunately, has friends. His friends like to kill people too. Stan also likes power, so he raises the price of milk and puts us all in debt. We whine and bitch and say "but, in anarchy, there is no rules or debt" and Stan then says, "Shutup or I'll kill you."

People are inherently power hungry and violent. It only takes one Stan to ruin anarchy on a small level. Soon, Stan and his army will get killed by a bigger army. Then an even bigger army will take over that. Boom, a small nation has popped up. The Anarchists are running like flies because they can't do shit about it without making a society and army of their own. Anarchy is self defeating. It's been proven, many times, that bad people will take control.

I'll give you one more example, this one at a much smaller level. Lets take the example of on the bus after you were arrested, Bree, when people were passing food mouth to mouth, etc. That was kind of anarchist, right? No, that was communal. For instance, what would have happened if everyone had skipped you, if everyone ate but you. What would you have done? This brings up the subject of rights. What rights do you have in an anarchist society? Simply, you have the right to do anything and have anything, and so does everyone else. So, effectively, when other people are concerned, you have absolutely no rights at all. So, if they skip you with the food, you have the right to complain. They have the right to say "fuck off, starve and die." You then, have the right to kill them. Yes, they also have the right to live, but you have the right to take any of their rights away. Or, lets say a third party steps in, and says "Give her food or I'll beat you up." So, they give you food. Suddenly, there is an unspoken rule. "If you skip people, you will get beat up by this third person." Anarchy no longer exists. For the sake of the little person, it's neccisary for some form of government to exist to ensure certain rights. Which form is up for debate, but government NEEDS to exist. Wether it be in a hippie commune, or a whole nation. There are still rules. Much NEEDED rules.

So, I've made the points that Anarchy is detrimental to learning and our species due to lack of incentive to help "society" and to learn. I've also made the point that anarchy can not exist and will collapse in on itself. These are both very concrete points. So, I'm wondering, if maybe you have another version of anarchy not represented here? Something that is closer to socialism than anarchy maybe? Otherwise, I don't understand how you can believe in it or fight for it.

Posted by Seager @ 06:58 PM CST Link |

Alright, this is getting ridiculous. It's getting close to a month I've been sick now. And it fucking cycles, gets better during the latter half of the week, and then gets worse during the weekend and first part of the week. It really likes to ruin my weekends. I don't have energy, I can't eat, I can barely talk... it really fucks up any fun. It pretty much limits my activities to watching TV and playing nintendo. I'm too exhausted for anything intellectual and too gimpy for anything social. I managed to get some more prednazone this morning from the doctor, but only in very small doses. It doesn't really do much anymore. The Codeine doesn't really work anymore either, it seems. My throat is re-swelling up, my ability to speak is leaving again, and all I really want is some super powerful painkiller so I can pretend to function. It feels like I've been punched in the face repeatedly. My throat, neck, mouth, jaw, gums, and EAR fucking hurts and aches. I don't get it. It's also beginning to make me fairly irritable.

And yea yea, I know, bitch, whine, you just skimmed that thinking "whine whine whine" to yourself. Whatever. I know I'm ten times better off than a lot of sick people. I know it's not so bad compared to someone with cancer. But, I'm going to bitch anyway. I've put up with this for a long time, with it faking like I'm going to get better three fucking times now. I have no idea anymore how long I'll be sick, and I have little hope of feeling better soon. I've never been sick like this before. So, I will bitch and whine here, because there is little more I can do.

Oh yea, and study my ass off tomorrow. Fuck. *insert many other swear words here*

Posted by Seager @ 01:32 AM CST Link |

Saturday, November 2, 2002

Does your face hurt? 'CAUSE IT'S KILLING ME!!!

No, wait... my face hurts... and it is killing me. Stupid being out of certain make me feel good drugs because you're not allowed to have over a certain amount.

Thank God for double doses of Codeine. I might not be able to open my mouth over a 1/2 inch without the prednazone, but at least now I can (pretend) it doesn't hurt like all hell.

Fuck you mono.

Posted by Seager @ 01:30 AM CST Link |

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